Everyone I know is talking about Marie Kondo and her decluttering/joy thing. I don't have Netflix, so I won't be catching any episodes of Tidying Up. I'm also already a minimalist (I used to live in a 480 square foot house) so I know how to pare down to the bare essentials. When it comes to clothing I own like 10 t-shirts and a few pairs of jeans - and if I get rid of any more furniture we'll be sitting on the floor.
HOWEVER, the concept of the show got me thinking. What about letting go of bad habits and other things that you do that don't serve you or bring joy?
Boy, do I have one of those.
This past summer, I decided to pull out my favorite piece of classical music and get it back up to speed. Not only is it my favorite song, but it's also the piece I used to audition to get into the music program in college - so it has a special place in my heart. I used to know the whole thing inside and out, front to back. It is so hard to play.
Because of Bipolar Disorder, I have memory issues and difficulty concentrating. I can play something perfectly 10 times and still mess it up on the 11th go. I can lose my place in the music, even while I'm looking at the page. It's a recipe for disaster and frustration
But I didn't know any of this back in college. I would spend hours upon hours in the practice room and just end up completely frustrated. I changed my degree from piano performance because one of the graduation requirements was a fully-memorized one-hour recital.
So, with all of that, I leave you with this. These clips are the last time I will ever play this song. I didn't even make it from start to finish. At the time I didn't know why I was hanging onto this video. But now I do. Maybe someone else needs to see this. Maybe you? Is it time to let go of something that no longer serves you?
**Starts twirling around and singing Let It Go from Frozen**
For me, classical music no longer serves me anything but a plate of psychosomatic issues. And it's time to move on to bigger and better things.
PS - In the video - when I say that this isn't fun anymore, I don't mean that everything in life needs to be a piece of cake. I think it's really important to work hard for what you want. But there sometimes comes a point where something doesn't serve you anymore and you end up serving it - It's okay to part ways. A butterfly can't crawl back into her cocoon. It's definitely not going to bring her joy. She needs to leave it behind and fly away.